Today I am being rejected from a Veterans group
I am blaming myself for this.
I shared too much. I am guessing that the lengthy military legal proceeding, my intense therapy and the pressure of losing my military career if I don’t recover fast enough is finally taking a toll on me. I am still new with all this. I am still recovering. I thought that I found a safe place. So I made the mistake of sharing my struggles, my frustrations and my fears. I thought your tag line “We’ve got your Six” was for real, and that it would apply to me too. That was my mistake.
I am also blaming you.
You shared an offensive post and offered me tips such as “Walking with confidence, with my chin up and my shoulders back so I attract less predators”.
Since I made a promise to stand up for myself, I brought up the matters to you. I explained how this made me feel uncomfortable. I expected support. I expected comprehension. Instead, you rejected me by fear of being reported if one of your members “tries something on me”.
Today you made me feel rejected and isolated. You also gave me a good dose of victim blaming and never took into consideration my triggers. That was your mistakes.
I am sad, but I am also glad.
I shared too much. I am guessing that the lengthy military legal proceeding, my intense therapy and the pressure of losing my military career if I don’t recover fast enough is finally taking a toll on me. I am still new with all this. I am still recovering. I thought that I found a safe place. So I made the mistake of sharing my struggles, my frustrations and my fears. I thought your tag line “We’ve got your Six” was for real, and that it would apply to me too. That was my mistake.
I am also blaming you.
You shared an offensive post and offered me tips such as “Walking with confidence, with my chin up and my shoulders back so I attract less predators”.
Since I made a promise to stand up for myself, I brought up the matters to you. I explained how this made me feel uncomfortable. I expected support. I expected comprehension. Instead, you rejected me by fear of being reported if one of your members “tries something on me”.
Today you made me feel rejected and isolated. You also gave me a good dose of victim blaming and never took into consideration my triggers. That was your mistakes.
I am sad, but I am also glad.
- I am sad I lost peers.
- I am glad that I realized you were not real peers before I paid your membership fee.
- I am sad to realize that standing up for me means loosing opportunities.
- I am glad I stood up for myself and that I did not bend under pressure.
- I am sad you didn’t want to support me in my time of needs.
- I am glad I did not spent energy offering support for a group who can’t return the favour.
- I am sad I did not get a chance to befriend with the good people in the group.
- I hope the good members find the strength to convince the others to adopt a more inclusive approach in the future.
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